Tabitha Sings and Melissa Sleeps

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Just returned from Tabitha’s first of many Christmas performances. She belongs to the city children’s choir and her school choir. As well, she also must preform at a school Christmas play and a piano recital. The recital she is going to miss as her parents will be out of the country (yes, I actually just received an email from the Gina Grant all about my dance training). And of course, Mistaya and Pippi have their share of dance recitals, band concerts, school plays and piano recitals too.

Tabitha is so much fun to watch perform as she always has a few genuine little smiles that light up my world.

It has been a busy weekend for my girls as usual: play dates, concerts, sleepovers. And busy for me too. I did finally get to a movie with Peter–The Descendants. I loved that it was filmed in Hawaii. George Clooney was great in it. The movie was just OK. I, of course, wanted to rewrite so many lines and scenes–If they had let me tweak it, it would have been a good movie.
Truth: I am going to relocate for several months a year to…S. France, S. Spain or Hawaii! Just as soon as I establish myself in the publishing world. The sooner the better 😀

It takes me awhile to accept the obvious. I have felt so tired for at least a week. I want to sleep a lot. Yet, I never allow myself to nap, thinking I must just be depressed or something. But this weekend I had an epiphany. I really am tired, exhausted! I deny myself the luxury of ever physically resting my body aside from sleeping. Working out for several hours + each day at full intensity has exhausted me. My body is begging me to give it even a full week of no hardcore workouts. I’ve been ignoring my body, thinking a night’s sleep is enough for it to replenish itself, build new muscle etc. I’ve been so wrong. I am not 20 years old.
Now I get my body. I cannot work out 2 strenuous hours a day and think one day a week with no workout is enough to recoup. I need more days off. Somehow, someway, I need to not do anything but casual walking for at least two days a week. Live and learn. By February, I plan to not teach more than 2 dance classes a day and take at least 2 days off a week. I may even have to give up running on the weekends for awhile. It’s too much cardio each week. I have to cut back somewhere. I’m like that–if I’m passionate about something: dance, painting, writing, I go full throttle until my body (or mind) crashes on me and reminds me to do all things in moderation.

It is so easy to delude oneself and get caught up in a routine and think the body just has to keep up. The high intensity 1h dancing that Zumba demands, leaves one so overheated and sweaty that there is no way a drink of water is all the rest I need. I now know that I need so much more rest, fluid and food. It will take time but I will figure out a schedule that lets me rest my body more. Way more. It is hard though, I find even when I’m not teaching, I am rehearsing–learning new dances all of the time. I guess because I love to dance so much, it is easy to overdue it. But I feel good that at least I caught myself before I totally collapsed in exhaustion.

  1. Md.Abdul Aziz
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